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I get myself so confused whenever I get into the start of a relationship. And funny thing is, I got confused with the same person I got confused with when AJ and I started dating.
A friend of mine 'sold out' (I could care less, since I never was nor am I now straightedge)... but this friend is one of the last people I would have thought would ever sell out. It makes me realize that straightedge is such a naive and childish term. I totally support and respect anyone who decides that they don't want to drink, smoke, etc. etc. etc.. It's just that I think the label is such a stupid thing. I know 10,000 people can put up their arguments as to why I'm wrong. I'm just saying it's my opinion, yo.
Anywho, on a lighter note, I love life, lovelife, cats, candles, and babies.
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| For my own benefit, I'm going to document my last week in probably way too much detail. But who knows, I might get lazy. And who knows, maybe you're interested for some freakish reasons. It's ok, I like that.
So I drove 5 million hours to Wisconsin on Thursday night. Got there, met the parents, Dan and I and a couple of his friends went to the cliffs and were going to have a bonfire but we forgot the starter log so instead we threw rocks into the icy river. We watched Weekend At Bernie's, and then ate Perkins and then went home to sleep.
Friday, Dan and I went to the mall and wasted time. It was amazing. We ate so much food, or at least I did. All day long. We went to dinner at this amazing fancy Chinese restaurant and then went to some bar and had a few drinks. We then went to some show at the Midwaste... in the small basement. With the red light. It was pretty fun. Saw a lot of people I had been dying to see, and some that I can't stand to see but still love them. Then Dan, Colin, Jack and I went to Water St. to the bars and had some fun. I had a little too much fun. Went home, had some not so much fun and then went to sleep.
Saturday I woke up so late I felt gross and Dan and I drove to Minneapolis and went to the Mall Of America. AHHHMAZING. I'm sure I looked like a little kid in a candy shop. We hung around the city for a while longer and then ate some Famous Dave's and drove back to Eau Claire. Solidarity had to have gay practice so we went to that. Saw Tony! Missed him oh so much. Then we went to the bar for a hot second, rented Scoop and went home.
Sunday Colin, Dan and I went to the mall, again, and then went to Solidarity practice, again. Went to eat, bought some alcohol for New Year's Eve, and Dan and I went to his friend Dave and Brianne's mansion and watched the UFC fight. We stopped by the House Of Rock so I could give Tony and Logan their Christmas presents. I love those two boys so much. Logan's such a stud. We went back to Dave's just in time for midnight, Jack, Isaiah, and the rest of everyone being out of control. It was fun times. Stayed up way to late, it snowed 4 inches, I was happy.
Monday morning got up super early because Colin's retarded. Drove to Osseo to the bar to watch some of the Badgers game and play shuffleboard. Then went to Colin's farmhouse... haha where we saw a horse and buggy and all kinds of crazy things.
We all left, half the boys in the van, half in my car, to Chicago. Stayed the night in Chicago. Awkward central, USA. But fun.
And then I got home, loved on my Fletch, rearranged my room with my new bed plus my old bed plus my TV.
And now I miss Daniel G. Lindell so much.
Tour is so gay when I'm not there. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I am so happy right now in my life! I have made some decisions about what I'm going to do with myself... and I know I have done this before but this time I know it's right because I'm so happy about my decisions. Thinking about being a teacher makes me so happy! I wish I could snap my fingers and I would have a degree already... but alas, I must finish school the real way. And I have an amazing boyfriend who is the sweetest, cutest, most thoughtful boy I have known in a long time. Ugh! I can't wait to see him.
What are you doing for New Year's Eve? I'm going to be spending it with Dan and a lot of other really great friends... dressed up all fancy, dinner, a little bit of a show, and then party on Water Street! I'm so excited!
I keep crying for no reason... or for really silly reasons. I don't know what's wrong with me! I cried two weeks in a row watching One Tree Hill, and then I cried the other night when Rachel and I went to the animal shelter. The kitties were just so freaking cute. I couldn't help myself.
This is starting to get pointless, so here I go!
All of my friends are almost home and that makes me just as happy as all of the above! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I have never been so confused or frustrated in my lifetime!! I never really vent on here but today is going to be the one exception, so if you would like to be spared, stop reading this now.
So I just got home from Detroit/Chicago. The show last night was amazing. Met some really nice guys and hung out with my really nice boys.
And there's where the whole confusion sets in. I have never wanted to make two people turn into one person more in my life.
(Gay, I know. They're pretty gay.)
History with one of them... we have the most amazing chemistry ever. Every time I see him it's out of control. But then when I don't see him... he doesn't talk to me and it just doesn't happen. But I'm in love with him. So much.
The other, is the greatest guy I've known. He's so sweet and smart and thoughtful and cute.
I just wish their qualities would combine to be one person. haha I know they are best friends. They know it too.
I'm so confused. Love sucks.
I don't even know what I'm confused about.
I have a boo. One of those two. Just not the one I'm in love with. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I don't understand how people can spill out so much about themselves on the internet! It makes me sick!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Madison%2C_WI
go there!!!!!
I kind of can't wait to live there! And go back to school... and be with a nice guy for once. I want to bring my friends with me though. Just Rachel, Tyler, and Katie. Alison would never come with. She'll just have to visit!
I've been really sick this week, so sorry if I have been hard to get a hold of or to see. I'm being forced to go to the doctor tomorrow even though I have no health insurance and I owe the office about $500. Oh well!
6 days until I get to see my boys!! Detroit, what what. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I can't wait until December 5th!
AHHHH!!
A three and a half hour drive north, but totally worth it. I get to bring Dan back with me!
Yay!
We (my friends and I) are having a Christmas party, probably on the 22nd of December. The location is to be announced! But you are welcome to come if you read this!
Oh my gosh, yes please:
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| I'm going to LA!
I'm going to Chicago!
I'm going back to Wisconsin!
ugh!
I wish I'd win the lottery!
I'm a sucker for a kind word! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| Things that I love:
Madison, WI and Colin,
My bedroom's fireplace,
Rachel [Margot] and my ghetto-fabulous-homeade Minnie Mouse ears.
And the fact that I'm sending Will a dreamcatcher in the mail. And a postcard with my house on the front.
Life is as great as great can be right now | | comments: Leave a comment |
| "I never said that I didn't need you, put down your arms and wrap them both right around me."
I hate thinking back. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| I'm moving AGAIN!
By the end of this month...
Here!
It's one of the historic houses on Dayton Lane, in Hamilton. Woo hoo.
But it's really nice and safe and I'll have a sweet 2 bedroom apartment for really ridiculously cheap.
I'm pretty happy about it.
There are some things/people that will be missing from it, but hopefully those will come with time.
Any offers to help me move will be much much much appreciated. There's even talk of $100 to pay someone(s) to help move furniture.
Holler! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| All is well in the world now that I have MewithoutYou's new CD, "Brother, Sister."
It is so good. Different, but good.
Thank you Thank you Thank you
It seriously couldn't have come at a better time in my life.
'One day the water's gonna wash it away...' | | comments: Leave a comment |
| One of my best friend's moms just died. I can't believe it.
I have nothing else to say really.
Except this next week or two... I can't even imagine what Rachel will be going through. Or what she already has been.
I can't wait to go to Wisconsin. I don't want to deal with my lack of money, job, housing here.
Wowzers. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| September 3: Alison Campbell Michael graces us all in Ohio with her beautiful presence.
September 4: WEBN fireworks!!
September 9: ACM's 20th birthday! Finally! Party!
September 10: Jacob and Sheila's wedding, Mama's birthday party! Alison goes back to stinky California without me :'(
September 19-21: Chicago.
September 22-26: Oh man, Wisconsin. Colin. Yes!!
After that, who knows what. Probably continue to be a broke ass bum-bitch.
Save me.
That's really all I wanted to update you on, whoever's interested. I know, you all are.
Oh, P.S. October 18th I turn 21, in case it wasn't already marked as a national holiday in your current calendars.
Love, Me.
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| Monday, August 07, 2006
I'm moving out of my house in Clifton today and tomorrow. From there, where will I go? I have no idea. Well, for RIGHT now I have to stay at my momma's because I don't want to be totally homeless. But she's selling our house and moving in to a condo... And I need to go somewhere, not because I hate Cincinnati or need to get out of here, because I don't. But I feel like I just need to get out of here at least for a while. I have allowed myself to get so tied down here over the years. Last time I tried moving away to Nashville and that totally blew up in my face [my own fault, letting my heart try and tell me what to do]. That was dumb. But this time, I really want to just try something else. There are so many places and possibilities that I am so overwhelmed and I just don't know what to do or where to go! My dad just moved to the PERFECT location. He lives in Fort Dix, New Jersey... half an hour from Philly, and an hour from NYC. I could go there, take Tyler with me, and live for probably a lot cheaper [of course if I can convince my dad of this]. I could move to Birmingham, Nashville, San Francisco, because I love all of these cities and they have people I love in them. I could move somewhere totally random, with no one there and completely start over, but that's just not me or what I want to do. There's somewhere I could go that probably everyone I know except for my family would shoot me for going there. But I can't help it, it's totally romantic.
Now that I have gone on and on and on forever about nothing at all. I just don't know what to do. I'm so confused. But not stressed. I am so happy right now in my life. I have nothing tying me down for once. No job, no lease, I do have my friends here but I know that I will always have them. I love my friends.
I just wish something would fall out of the sky for me. I want someone else to figure this out for me!
Friday, August 11, 2006
I'm going to go back to school! And I'm going to major in elementary education! I want to be a teacher for sure now and the only thing that was holding me back from doing that was the money issue. I decided that I don't care how much money I make, as long as I'm happy doing whatever it is I'm doing. And being a teacher, a first grade teacher preferably, would make me absolutely ecstatic. I applied to school last night. No where anyone would expect me to apply to also..... except for my momma. She knows where. This will be huge if I get accepted. I will know no one. At all.
But I was thinking about school last night, and I got really excited. Excited about meeting new people, actually doing my school work and getting it over with, actually going out and doing stuff at school.
GOOD LUCK TO ME!
The End.
<3
P.S. I think I have accidentally fallen in love. Don't tell anyone. But he is the most amazing boy ever. Ever. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| I live in my new house and I love it.
I just need to go grocery shopping because I have no food. At all.
Right now I am laying in bed eating Thai food and watching Valley Girl!
I don't really have anything else to say right now.
Except that Alison is home and I saw her Friday and spent all day and night with her yesterday and I'm so happy she's home. I missed her a lot.
Oh, and we are in a short film... The House of Minor Inconveniences. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I sat up very abruptly in my sleep last night only to slam my head into a corner of the wall.
And when I was taking a shower this morning, I fell [again, yes I did this last week], hitting my head again.
So I went to work because all I had was an intense headache... well all morning it hurt a lot.
This afternoon I walked up a flight of stairs and fell down.
My boss sent me home.
I'm 83% sure I have a gnarly concussion.
But I am 100% sure that there are massive amounts of people sitting around a car bumping their music outside of my house.
I do not understand the male species at all.
Maybe I'm just thinking too hard with my crazy head right now.
But then again, I always overanalyze everything. All the time.
I wish someone would talk to me right now and keep me from falling asleep.
I just found a pair of pants on my back porch.
Someone had a pants party, apparently. Or a no-pants party.
Oh, back to guys.
I think that I discovered that I am too trusting... or, maybe I have too much faith in people.
I keep getting let down. So easily.
And then there is this thing, where the one person who I should never trust or have faith in again, is being amazing.
And totally there for me. A lot lately.
It's strange how things work out.
Dear Boy that I really like,
Don't let me get away.
Sincerely, Kara. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I'm moving out of my apartment! Next weekend!
I do not want to move back in at my momma's, but hey I will save some serious money for a couple of months...
And then in August or September I will move on somewhere else, we will cross those bridges when they come.
I am so close to what I have been wanting for a long time now. Or at least I would like to pretend that I am.
It's probably nothing.
On another note, sort of, there's this amazing guy. Yes.
That's all...
I spent a lot of time with all of my family today and it was so good. I love my family.
My dad comes home for a couple days on June 4th! I'm so excited. I miss him. Kuwait/Iraq is not a safe place for him to be.
"If you would only listen you might just realize what you're missing, you're missing me."
I miss my best friends.
And I can't decide which coast I need more. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
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